So I've been a bit overwhelmed lately. That seems a bit of an understatement right now. So much is happening right now, and I'm beginning to wonder if I'm ever going to make it to tomorrow. This might end up as a bit of a vent, and also just an update on what is going on in my life. Right now I am working at Amber Lyn Chocolates and the Tuacahn Box Office. I'm getting ready to move North the end of the month. This Friday I will be moving a majority of my crap to my new apartment. I will be moving in with my old roommate Allison. She just bought a condo several months ago and asked me if I wanted to move in. Right now I'm working 6 days a week and trying to pack up my crap so that I can finally move and enjoy the new scenery of my future home. As well as the fact that I'm working all the time and trying to move, I'm also getting ready to go on a vacation to Wyoming in about 2 weeks, as well as the fact that I'm the maid of honor for my friend whose wedding is in about 3 weeks, while also trying to finish up my two study abroad classes, all before I move on the 30th. Right now I'm freaking out about everything just an itzy bit. I know that I will get through this, but for now I'm just trying to survive.
I think it is time to pull out The Power of Positive Thinking again. My positive attitude has somewhat slimmed in the last couple of weeks, but hopefully after this week I won't be as stressed and will actually have a moment to relax. Wish me luck ;)
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Monday, July 9, 2012
Thursday, March 22, 2012
“Life is All About How you Handle Plan B"
So it's been a while since I really blogged about anything, so I thought I would give it a go.
Everything is in place for London in May. I've got my plane ticket and tuition paid for, so now I just have to wait.
I'll be graduating in May! You're all welcome to send me presents and money for graduation and my birthday, which is the day before graduation ;)
As for being single, it doesn't bother me anymore. I've decided that there are many things to be grateful for in my life, and being single is a blessing as well as a trial for me. As much as I'm sick of being alone there are many things that make me grateful to be single. For instance, I get to go to London this May. I can go to school back East if I feel like it. I've decided that I'm going to love being single, and even though it will be hard for me sometimes I've turned to some talks from the Ensign. Here's a few I would recommend to anyone, even if you're not single, but just struggling:
I've also pulled out one of my favorite books to reread called The Power of Positive Thinking.
This is such a great book. It has helped me out a ton. It helped me out recently when I was feeling very negative about things in my life. One chapter in particular called "How to Create Your Own Happiness." It sounds silly but it wasn't until I read this chapter again that it dawned on me. If I want to be happy I need to choose to be happy. I want to share some quotes that might help more than just me.
"The happiness habit is developed by simply practicing happy thinking. Make a mental list of happy thoughts and pass them through your mind several times every day. If an unhappiness thought should enter your mind, immediately stop, consciously eject it, and substitute a happiness thought. Every morning before arising, lie relaxed in bed and deliberately drop happy thoughts into your conscious mind. Let a series of pictures pass across your mind of each happy experience you expect to have during the day. Savor their joy. Such thoughts will help cause events to turn out that way. Do not affirm that things will not go well that day. By merely saying that, you can actually help to make it so. You will draw to yourself every factor, large and small, that will contribute to unhappy conditions."
"...if you visualize and affirm an unhappy outcome, you tend thereby to create just that type of condition. So affirm happy outcomes at the start of every day, and you will be surprised at how often things will turn out so."
"The way to happiness: keep your heart free from hate, your mind from worry. Live simply, expect little, give much. Fill your life with love. Scatter sunshine. Forget self, think of others. Do as you would be done by. Try this for a week and you will be surprised."
I hope these quotes are helpful to you like they have been for me. Life doesn't always work out the way we plan. I remember thinking that things would work out after I graduated from Dixie. Now I'm getting ready to graduate from SUU and I have no idea what I'm going to do. That's just life I guess.
To end this post here is an inspirational poem for anyone who finds their plans not working out the way they planned. :-D
“Life is All About How you Handle Plan B
Plan A is always my first choice.
You know, the one where
Everything works out to be
Happily ever-after.
But more often than not,
I find myself dealing with
The upside-down, inside-out version --
Where nothing goes as it should.
It's at this point that the real
Test of my character comes in..
Do I sink, or do I swim?
Do I wallow in self pity and play the victim,
Or simply shift gears
And make the best of the situation?
The choice is all mine...
Life is all about how you handle Plan B.”
- Suzy Toronto
Everything is in place for London in May. I've got my plane ticket and tuition paid for, so now I just have to wait.
I'll be graduating in May! You're all welcome to send me presents and money for graduation and my birthday, which is the day before graduation ;)
As for being single, it doesn't bother me anymore. I've decided that there are many things to be grateful for in my life, and being single is a blessing as well as a trial for me. As much as I'm sick of being alone there are many things that make me grateful to be single. For instance, I get to go to London this May. I can go to school back East if I feel like it. I've decided that I'm going to love being single, and even though it will be hard for me sometimes I've turned to some talks from the Ensign. Here's a few I would recommend to anyone, even if you're not single, but just struggling:
I've also pulled out one of my favorite books to reread called The Power of Positive Thinking.
"The happiness habit is developed by simply practicing happy thinking. Make a mental list of happy thoughts and pass them through your mind several times every day. If an unhappiness thought should enter your mind, immediately stop, consciously eject it, and substitute a happiness thought. Every morning before arising, lie relaxed in bed and deliberately drop happy thoughts into your conscious mind. Let a series of pictures pass across your mind of each happy experience you expect to have during the day. Savor their joy. Such thoughts will help cause events to turn out that way. Do not affirm that things will not go well that day. By merely saying that, you can actually help to make it so. You will draw to yourself every factor, large and small, that will contribute to unhappy conditions."
"...if you visualize and affirm an unhappy outcome, you tend thereby to create just that type of condition. So affirm happy outcomes at the start of every day, and you will be surprised at how often things will turn out so."
"The way to happiness: keep your heart free from hate, your mind from worry. Live simply, expect little, give much. Fill your life with love. Scatter sunshine. Forget self, think of others. Do as you would be done by. Try this for a week and you will be surprised."
I hope these quotes are helpful to you like they have been for me. Life doesn't always work out the way we plan. I remember thinking that things would work out after I graduated from Dixie. Now I'm getting ready to graduate from SUU and I have no idea what I'm going to do. That's just life I guess.
To end this post here is an inspirational poem for anyone who finds their plans not working out the way they planned. :-D
“Life is All About How you Handle Plan B
Plan A is always my first choice.
You know, the one where
Everything works out to be
Happily ever-after.
But more often than not,
I find myself dealing with
The upside-down, inside-out version --
Where nothing goes as it should.
It's at this point that the real
Test of my character comes in..
Do I sink, or do I swim?
Do I wallow in self pity and play the victim,
Or simply shift gears
And make the best of the situation?
The choice is all mine...
Life is all about how you handle Plan B.”
- Suzy Toronto
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Here's to Life
So the last few weeks have been...interesting. First of all nothing has happened with Roberto, so sorry to anyone who got their hopes up. I'm sorry but I got sick of being the one initiating everything. I don't want to be the one doing all the work in a relationship, so goodbye Roberto.
Now let me share a...I guess funny story. So a couple of weeks ago I wasn't having a very good day. This day happened to be a Saturday, which are kind of the bane of my existence sometimes. My day started out well with time at the temple, and I'm glad that I had that time of spirituality because after that my day went downhill. After the temple I went to work at the chocolate factory. It was the Saturday just before Valentine's day and it was surprisingly slow, and when it's slow at work I have a lot of time to think, sometime too much time to think, and when I think it's usually a bad thing. Well it was the week after my big date and I hadn't heard from Roberto, and I had even tried inviting him to a game night, but nothin'. So I was trying to figure out what I did to scare this boy away because that seems to be my M.O. Well I was getting depressed and them my boss Ben came in to the store for a minute. Ben is the one who set me up with Roberto, and Ben is determined to get me married off. He also thinks that I should do everything, not really but sometimes it feels that way.. Anyway Ben came in and I was telling him how upset I was. Does this make me sound like a baby? I really don't understand the whole relationship thing, I'm trying to, but I seem to just make a mess out of nothing. I'm not desperate either, well maybe a little bit. Give me a break I'm going through a hard time. Which brings me to what made my day even better. So after talking to Ben and him making me cry, I left work to go decorate heart shaped cookies with Kymn, her boyfriend and her family. Well after cookies Kymn and I were supposed to go ring shopping. Well there ended up being a slight change of plans. Kymn's boyfriend decided he wanted to come along. So now it was me and the happy couple. Well we ended up at the mall and while they were choosing rings I decided to wander off for a minute because I felt very out of place. Well when I wandered back into the jewelry store I ran into another one of my best friends looking at rings with her new fiancee. Now I'm happy for both of my friends but it was not a good day for me to find out that two of my best friends are getting married, and one of them is the person I was supposed to be moving in with in June, which apparently isn't happening now. Anyway after I ran into Erika I had to go wander off again. I ended up in a corner of Barnes and Noble trying to hide my puffy eyes behind a book. It wasn't until Kymn text me that I went out of hiding and wandered back to the jewelry store. Russ was purchasing a ring as I walked in and Erika came over to talk to me. After that Russ took Kymn and I out to dinner. I'm pretty sure he felt bad for me. When we got to the restaurant there was about a half hour wait and I had left my phone in his car so I went back to his car and I just broke down and sat on the curb and cried. Luckily Kymn was there to comfort me.
It's stupid that being single bugs me as much as it does, but I think I'm just frustrated with the fact that I'm in my twenties and have never had a boyfriend. Plus it gets annoying being the third wheel all the time. I don't mind hanging out with my friends and their boyfriends but sometimes it can get awkward being there, even though they claim they want me to hang out with them, sometimes I feel like I'm intruding and that they're just trying to be nice because they feel bad for me.
I'm trying to see the positive in this.
So here's a list of reasons why it is great being single (Some of these may be a bit irrational but I'm trying to make myself feel better ;) ):
In May I will be graduating, then I'll be going to London for two weeks, then I'll be working all summer to save money so I can move to Salt Lake with my friend Allison, fingers crossed. This is just one trial I have to work through and I know someday, in the Lord's time, I will eventually find a man who will love me and treat me like a queen. Until then I will enjoy being single and seeing the world.
If you think of any other reasons why it is awesome to be single please comment and share. I need more reasons to love being single.
Now let me share a...I guess funny story. So a couple of weeks ago I wasn't having a very good day. This day happened to be a Saturday, which are kind of the bane of my existence sometimes. My day started out well with time at the temple, and I'm glad that I had that time of spirituality because after that my day went downhill. After the temple I went to work at the chocolate factory. It was the Saturday just before Valentine's day and it was surprisingly slow, and when it's slow at work I have a lot of time to think, sometime too much time to think, and when I think it's usually a bad thing. Well it was the week after my big date and I hadn't heard from Roberto, and I had even tried inviting him to a game night, but nothin'. So I was trying to figure out what I did to scare this boy away because that seems to be my M.O. Well I was getting depressed and them my boss Ben came in to the store for a minute. Ben is the one who set me up with Roberto, and Ben is determined to get me married off. He also thinks that I should do everything, not really but sometimes it feels that way.. Anyway Ben came in and I was telling him how upset I was. Does this make me sound like a baby? I really don't understand the whole relationship thing, I'm trying to, but I seem to just make a mess out of nothing. I'm not desperate either, well maybe a little bit. Give me a break I'm going through a hard time. Which brings me to what made my day even better. So after talking to Ben and him making me cry, I left work to go decorate heart shaped cookies with Kymn, her boyfriend and her family. Well after cookies Kymn and I were supposed to go ring shopping. Well there ended up being a slight change of plans. Kymn's boyfriend decided he wanted to come along. So now it was me and the happy couple. Well we ended up at the mall and while they were choosing rings I decided to wander off for a minute because I felt very out of place. Well when I wandered back into the jewelry store I ran into another one of my best friends looking at rings with her new fiancee. Now I'm happy for both of my friends but it was not a good day for me to find out that two of my best friends are getting married, and one of them is the person I was supposed to be moving in with in June, which apparently isn't happening now. Anyway after I ran into Erika I had to go wander off again. I ended up in a corner of Barnes and Noble trying to hide my puffy eyes behind a book. It wasn't until Kymn text me that I went out of hiding and wandered back to the jewelry store. Russ was purchasing a ring as I walked in and Erika came over to talk to me. After that Russ took Kymn and I out to dinner. I'm pretty sure he felt bad for me. When we got to the restaurant there was about a half hour wait and I had left my phone in his car so I went back to his car and I just broke down and sat on the curb and cried. Luckily Kymn was there to comfort me.
It's stupid that being single bugs me as much as it does, but I think I'm just frustrated with the fact that I'm in my twenties and have never had a boyfriend. Plus it gets annoying being the third wheel all the time. I don't mind hanging out with my friends and their boyfriends but sometimes it can get awkward being there, even though they claim they want me to hang out with them, sometimes I feel like I'm intruding and that they're just trying to be nice because they feel bad for me.
I'm trying to see the positive in this.
So here's a list of reasons why it is great being single (Some of these may be a bit irrational but I'm trying to make myself feel better ;) ):
- Being single means you don't have anything or anyone holding you back. If I had a boyfriend or was married there is no way I would be going to England in May.
- Since I don't have anyone depending on me I can be spontaneous and take a road trip to anywhere if I wanted.
- I don't have to check in with anyone.
- I only have to pay for one at the movies, at dinner, whatever.
- I don't have to worry about what my significant other is doing or if he is cheating on me or doing something stupid.
- I can flirt with whomever I want.
- I don't have to share anything with anyone.
- I can look at hot guys and fantasize about them.
- I can cry at a movie and not have my boyfriend make fun of me.
- I can watch all of my Jane Austen and other sappy romance movies without a guy complaining.
- I can be myself and not have anyone judge me or try to change me.
- I can travel, go to school, do pretty much whatever I choose without having to compromise.
- I don't have to compromise.
- I can have a cardboard cutout of Legolas in my bedroom ;) yes I still have him, and Edward too.
In May I will be graduating, then I'll be going to London for two weeks, then I'll be working all summer to save money so I can move to Salt Lake with my friend Allison, fingers crossed. This is just one trial I have to work through and I know someday, in the Lord's time, I will eventually find a man who will love me and treat me like a queen. Until then I will enjoy being single and seeing the world.
If you think of any other reasons why it is awesome to be single please comment and share. I need more reasons to love being single.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Adieu For Now
Alright...so...where to begin? Pretty much I'm overwhelmed. I just keep adding to my pile, and the only person that I am hurting is me. A few weeks ago my boss at the chocolate factory asked me if I would like to write on the blog on the chocolate factory website. I'll get paid for every post that I write, and he wants about two a week. I told him that I would love to because let's face it, I doubt I will be getting a job writing after I graduate. I'm not a pessimist, I'm a realist ;) I've been getting after him about what type of stuff he wants me to write so that I can get started and start saving more money. So today I was sitting in the library, eating my lunch and checking my email during my hour break. I saw an email from my boss with a list of topics that he wants me to write about. Now I knew that I would probably have to do some research for a lot of the posts, but I didn't realize what type of stuff he would want me to blog about.
I'm trying to see this as an opportunity for me to work on my researching skills. As many of you know I have been considering getting a Master's degree in Library Science, and I've been considering focusing on being a reference librarian, and they are all about the research. This semester I'm even taking a class on Reference and computer skills, so in a way this might help me in my class as well. I started working on my first post today while I was at work at Tuacahn, which did not work out because they had me do a backstage tour and then I had work at the gate, and I just didn't have a whole lot of time to focus. During the week should be better because I have more time since I only work about twenty hours during the week, the weekend is far too stressful for me.
So as I sit here venting about this new job that I have I think, my time would be much better spent researching. So you probably won't hear from me very often this semester because I will be working at or for one of my many jobs. I'm beginning to think that I'm about to reach my breaking point. So if I don't comment don't be upset with me because I still love you, just reading your blogs is not at the top of my list as much as I would love it to be because that used to be my favorite form of wasting time was blog stalking.
Did I mention to you that it's almost 1am and I've been working on homework and I need to go to bed so I can work all day tomorrow? Let me just say there's a lot of giggling on my side. Goodnight to y'all!
I'm trying to see this as an opportunity for me to work on my researching skills. As many of you know I have been considering getting a Master's degree in Library Science, and I've been considering focusing on being a reference librarian, and they are all about the research. This semester I'm even taking a class on Reference and computer skills, so in a way this might help me in my class as well. I started working on my first post today while I was at work at Tuacahn, which did not work out because they had me do a backstage tour and then I had work at the gate, and I just didn't have a whole lot of time to focus. During the week should be better because I have more time since I only work about twenty hours during the week, the weekend is far too stressful for me.
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| I couldn't help myself it's too funny, and I'm sorry if I offended anyone, but come on it's hilarious! |
However, if you do want to read my blogs maybe I'll post them or at least the link to them so you can still hear my beautiful voice. And if anything really exciting happens you will see it on my blog.
On another note, I've decided that this summer I will be going to England for a study abroad program with the English Department. I'll probably be leaving right after graduation and I'll be gone for at least two weeks, I'm trying to convince Libby that she should fly out and meet me at the end of my trip and we could tour Europe for a little while. Of course I understand that this will be expensive but I'm going to do whatever I can to actually do it because let's face it when else will I get an opportunity like this?
For now "That's all Folks!" I hope you won't forget me, just remember I still love you all!
Monday, October 18, 2010
Do You See What is Different?
I want you to take a good, long look at this picture. Can you see what I have changed?
I'm not going to say what I did differently because some people can't see what is different. Is it really that hard to notice when someone just got bangs? Apparently it is.
So if you haven't realized what is different yet I'll tell you straight out. I GOT BANGS! So thanks for noticing!
I'm not going to say what I did differently because some people can't see what is different. Is it really that hard to notice when someone just got bangs? Apparently it is.
So if you haven't realized what is different yet I'll tell you straight out. I GOT BANGS! So thanks for noticing!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Another moment of boredom!
So the past few days I have been home alone in my apartment. I've been working full time at the library and then coming home to my empty apartment. So I've been really bored. I've had a lot of time to watch movies and sit in front of my computer screen. So since I've had a lot of time to waste, I've been surfing the internet. A popular site on the internet just happens to be youtube, and since there is a new Twilight movie coming out soon I decided to see if there were any new trailers. Well after watching the official trailer for Eclipse at least twice I found a few fan made trailers. I will admit that I was beginning to get annoyed at myself for wasting my time watching these stupid videos, and then I saw the Walmart commercial for the New Moon DVD and how you see these two girls and their mom watching New Moon and the girls are mouthing "I love you Edward" and I realized how pathetic women are today. We want this unrealistic love. Since I've had a lot of time this week, I've been writing, and all that I seem to write are love stories. I am a horrible romantic, I can't really help myself, I want to fall in love like every other girl, but it just hasn't happened for me yet. I've also noticed that the man of my dreams is only a figment of my imagination. The man of my dreams is 6 foot 6, Dark brown hair, blue eyes, preferably has a British accent, but I know he doesn't exist. That is why we read though isn't it. We can live these fantastic lives by reading. I love to read because it takes me to a world unlike the one that I'm currently living in. Back to my original point, it is fine to read the Twilight books, and fall in love with Edward, but he is a fictional character. FICTIONAL! Let's just face the fact that no matter what there will never be an Edward Cullen, or an Edward Darcy for that matter. There is my opinion on the matter. I hope everyone has a great weekend. I'm not bitter, I promise, maybe a little tired. I will say that I am bitter toward the people who constantly ask me if I'm dating anyone and when I say no, they blame me like it is my fault. If I had the opportunity to date I would, but apparently I'm not good enough for any guy, (Okay now I am being bitter). Just for all of those who like to ask me if I am dating anyone, no I am not, and it is not my fault. Besides I don't think that I'm ready to date at the moment, and it is NOT my fault. Okay I think that is all I have to say. Oh yes, I just want everyone to know that I have already pre-ordered New Moon, and am very excited to watch it again!
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